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Your writing has inspired me to get back the same feelings I've had before, similar to yours. I read long ago about a near death experience and the author said that nothing else brought her that peace, that joy, that feeling again, but that the closest thing to it was sitting at the beach and listening to the waves coming in and out.

I once went to a "silent" retreat in the hills of Northern California. I had just been through a divorce, and I was going through a rough time. The first few days I was there were hell. I could barely stand to sit still during the 1 hour meditation times; my mind just wouldn't calm down. Around 3 or 4 days later, though, something changed. I was able to sit, I was able to just let go.

It's been years since that happened, and I've moved away from it. It's time to move back. Thank you!

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This is exactly why I shared this essay, to pay it forward, after a friend of mine shared his own story with me. Thanks for the kind words. Wishing both of us the courage and self-trust to keep exploring :)

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May 16, 2022Liked by Ammar

Tranquilization of the mind on the Eight Fold Path of Patangali is greatly helped by a technique like Hong Sau, Ocean Breath, or Kriya...

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Thanks! Any commentaries worth looking at to dive in?

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Thrilled for the followup. I have similarly done battle with consistent meditation and have yet to make love rather than war with it. Looking forward for your insight on how you settled.

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“Make love rather than war with it” - different flavor of ambition!

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This is very beautiful indeed. I don't think you need to worry about what Future Ammar might think. I hope you continue to go deep with your practice in the following decades!

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